i'm really tired and fed up with school so i'm really glad it's the weekend.  on the other hand, i'm really happy because i just got three e-mails from "my boy."  that's in quotes because we're not officially going out or anything but we might as well be.  he's truely the greatest guy i've ever met; no lie.  i love him

i've been sick for about a week.  nothing serious, no swine flu.  just a cold and an upset tummy.  when i'm sick i have a tendency not to eat.  PLUS, i recently got my period and when i'm on my period, i also have a tendency not to eat.  it's like my tummy hurts to much to eat.  so for the past 2 days, i've not eaten lunch.  the only meal i have is dinner because i never eat breakfast. 

today i had gym and i'm signed up for ultimate frisbee.  BUT, i feel super akaward when i have my period because for some stupid reason, i just can't get the fucking tampon in and have to use pads.  ANYWAY.  i'm sure we all know how uncomfortable that is.  so i basically screwed gym class today and probably got a horrible grade.  oh well, next time i have gym, i'll be off my period.  damn you, aunt flow.

the scale says i'm gaining weight.  just recently however, my friend AND her mom both told me that it looked like i've lost weight.  now, i must be gaining muscle and losing inches because last time i checked, when one loses weight, the numbers on the scale do not go up.  i have been lifting weights and kind of cutting back on food, so i hope it's just me gaining muscle.

i finally went to the dermatologist today.  he's giving me a face wash, cream, and prescribed me a pill to take.  i'm actually quite a bit excited because there won't be anything like getting rid of the acne i've had since i was about 10.  YAY!  but one thing he told me is to absolutely not pick at my zits.  i obviously know you're not supposed to pick anyway but, i've had acne for sooo long that i think it's become a habit that's going to be extremely hard to break.  i pick at my face without even noticing.  i've got to stop.  think a clean face, ashley, a clean face.

oh, it's been soo long since i've updated!  i've been busy with school and i've been fetting frusterated with trying to lose weight.  it's just NOT coming off.  since last time, i figured out that i think i want to learn how to box.  so i've been lifting small weights just to try to tone up my arms a little bit.  it's kind of working, i guess.  other than dealing with everything else that comes my way, i'm trying to take all the time i can get to relax.  i've been feeling really lazy lately though ... not good.  lacrosse starts next weekend and i need to step it up.

i'm just another girl trying to get by.